You will never know how bad it was until it’s get’s better.
This past week of was the first week of class of my sophomore year of college. I will admit I still have some anxieties about how the semester, and how the year as a whole are going unfold. But it is already so much better.
I feel respected by the people I am living with. I feel like I am going to be able to thrive and really grow in my classes. I feel like as long as I keep on top of my school work I will be able to maintain a personal life and keep up with my side projects ( I debate calling them side hustles, but maybe some day soon they will be able to be called that).
I never realized how bad it was. My schedule is fairly similar to what it has been in previous semesters, but this go around I don’t feel like school is consuming life. I already don’t feel like I have to be working for someone else 24/7.
This rather sudden realization has also helped me to take a step back and really realize the progress I have made in my studies. Yeah there’s always room for improvement and I still have a long way to go. And I am never going to deny the mistakes I have made along the way.
But I finally feel like I have found where I belong on this campus. I feel like I have a grasp on how to do this, in a way that feels like I am being true to myself.
I don’t want to get to far ahead of myself, but this might be the best semester yet to be recorded.
