Hi, I hope you read this. Right now I am 19 and just now starting to piece together who I am and who I want you to be. It changes slightly from minute to minute, hour to hour, day to day, week to week, month to month, year to year. But at the core of my dreaming, you’re always the same person.
You are confident. You can walk into any room, any situation and own it. Let the attention be yours. You can shape any situation to where you get something out of it.
You love with everything you have. You love yourself as you love others. You love others the same way you love yourself. The graces and generosity you extend to others, you extend to yourself.
Your generous. You give to those who need it. You acknowledge when you are the one who needs it.
You graceful. You let other mess up, make mistakes and flubs and you still love them and work to move past it. You let yourself mess up, make mistakes and flubs and you still love yourself and continue on.
You know your worth, and you add tax. You know what your skills are, and you own them. You know what your weaknesses are, and you own them. You work to improve the status of both them. You strive to be the best at everything, and know when to let others be the experts.
You find just as much beauty in yourself and your life, as you do others. You wake up most days and look in the mirror and awe at your beauty. You go to sleep, thinking about just how amazing your life is, with a little smirk of just you wait. And on bad days you look in the mirror and can just be neutral about the face staring back at you, and the life you are leading.
You’re creative. Your house is filled with handmade blankets, and mix tape CDs. Your counting down the days until your album release party, and just took the best Instagram photo. This weekend you’re hoping to work on some music production and maybe writing some new songs. Last weekend you tried a new cookie recipe. You’re writing a book. You post weekly makeup videos to YouTube. You journal and read practically daily.
You’re fun sweetheart. You can be the life of the party, cracking jokes and dancing the night away. But the moment you realize something is up, you’re ready to come someone’s aide no matter what that looks like.
You’re intelligent and wise. You know the answers to random Jeopardy categories. But you also give pretty great life advice.
You have awesome fashion sense. You know what looks good on you, and what makes you feel good. You know that power that is a well put together woman, and you wield it occasionally. You wear a pencil skirt just as well as skinny jeans and converse.
Your financially independent. You save. You invest. You have a sufficient emergency fund and only the good kind of debt.
You travel .You need to order new passport pages constantly. You travel fund is part of your budget, and its the one account you just can’t seem to keep money in. You take long weekends and go to festivals across the sea. You go to the random one off small show across the country. To go to the conference and conventions. You just go.
You take care of yourself. You make you, a priority. You make sure your health both physical and mental are taken care of you. You know that you can;t fill from an empty cup and you don’t try. you work out, you eat right and heck maybe you even do yoga.
I don’t yet know you. But I can’t wait to. Every time I have thought of you before, I always thought of what I wanted you to be doing. Like you were some kind of Barbie. I wanted you to a rock star and a music producer and an author and a business owner and a digital content creator and a wife and a mother and blah blah blah.
But right here right now I think I laid out what I really want you to be, happy. I hope you’re happy. I hope when you can write a letter to me and tell that the moment of unrest and uncertainty were short. They few and far between, but most of them are in the past. I hope you can thank me for everything, and say that it was all worth it because together we built a life worth loving and living.
I can’t wait to see you in the mirror, some day.
